What if ?

I have been a believer of everything nice and sweet. I believed that in the end everything gets fine, I believed in the happy endings, I believed that life is perfect and it’s all about happiness and togetherness and that’s the way it is. I believed that unicorns exist, I even believed I was a mermaid. How I wish this was true. How I wish water was blue.

I have always been the happy and positive one. I’ve believed that after every storm we witness a rainbow but this year I realised  that all my beliefs were naive and superficial.

Life is miserable. There is misery all around. We thrive onto the misery. We’re empty without misery.

I Wonder “What If” by the end everything is perfect and we live happily ever after but in the actual scenario, every passing day gets more and more miserable.

I try to be strong and happy. I try to keep the hope alive. But in the end even the candle that lights up whole of the place burns itself up in order to light up others. I’m at the verge of disappearing. I can’t light up your world now.

I try to embrace life as it comes. I try to look out for happiness but today I just want to put an end to this misery.

I wish to sleep and never wake up. How I wish to leave and never come back. What If ? I do leave and never come back. What if ?